Looking Down The Line
You all know I'm a dreamer: When I zone off, I more often than not start picturing my future. It's nice to think about that when stuff sucks in the present(and things have a tendency to royally suck). In my dreams, I live in this really hipsterish apartment in New York with cool walls and hot neighbors. I'm living the imaginary life, aren't I? (Forget the fact that I can't live alone for shit and I get anxiety in busy places and this life is mine!..)
But, when I'm not dreaming about my mysterious-looking, beard-rocking future neighbor, I actually give my future some really good thoughts. Wanna get a glimpse into (hopefully-more or less) my real future? No? Well, you don't really have a choice.
2 years from now I'll be going off to university. I've been struggling lately to find a good uni to go to: I know if I want to do well I have to leave the country but I get very homesick and the prospect of setting off somewhere far from here, not knowing anyone or anything makes me quite panicky and anxiety-ridden.
Something I really wanna do as well is take a gap year, whether it be after high school or after uni, and explore the world. Save up some money, backpack through Europe or the United States, do some charity work, just generally get some life experience. You don't really ever get a break otherwise: After school, it's uni and straight after uni you're thrown into the "real" world for the rest of your life and I am not up for that.
7 years from now, I'll be done with said-uni. I hope in the meantime I will have been able to make at least one movie that I'm really, truly proud of, get matching tattoos with my family because it's something we've really been wanting to do, live in a foreign country for a while (not on my own!) and just generally become someone I'm comfortable and happy to be.
10 years from now, who knows what I'll be doing. Every time I start a sentence like this, it ends with "I'll be rich". So yeah, hopefully I'll be sufficient enough to be able to give back to my family because they're an awesome family (and because I'm legally bound to them and otherwise they'll take me out of their wills. I kid, I kid). But apart from that I also want to have done really cool things and have crazy accomplishments that I can be proud of, I want to get involved with charities that make good in the world and make movies that change people's lives-which maybe sounds far-fetched and ambitious, but that's my goal (Also, getting a boyfriend would be pretty cool too. Just saying.)
I don't really know what I want to do after that; I'm trying this thing where instead of living in the made up world in my head, I try to live in the present and let the future worry about the future.. I'll tell you how it goes.
But, when I'm not dreaming about my mysterious-looking, beard-rocking future neighbor, I actually give my future some really good thoughts. Wanna get a glimpse into (hopefully-more or less) my real future? No? Well, you don't really have a choice.
2 years from now I'll be going off to university. I've been struggling lately to find a good uni to go to: I know if I want to do well I have to leave the country but I get very homesick and the prospect of setting off somewhere far from here, not knowing anyone or anything makes me quite panicky and anxiety-ridden.
Something I really wanna do as well is take a gap year, whether it be after high school or after uni, and explore the world. Save up some money, backpack through Europe or the United States, do some charity work, just generally get some life experience. You don't really ever get a break otherwise: After school, it's uni and straight after uni you're thrown into the "real" world for the rest of your life and I am not up for that.
7 years from now, I'll be done with said-uni. I hope in the meantime I will have been able to make at least one movie that I'm really, truly proud of, get matching tattoos with my family because it's something we've really been wanting to do, live in a foreign country for a while (not on my own!) and just generally become someone I'm comfortable and happy to be.
10 years from now, who knows what I'll be doing. Every time I start a sentence like this, it ends with "I'll be rich". So yeah, hopefully I'll be sufficient enough to be able to give back to my family because they're an awesome family (and because I'm legally bound to them and otherwise they'll take me out of their wills. I kid, I kid). But apart from that I also want to have done really cool things and have crazy accomplishments that I can be proud of, I want to get involved with charities that make good in the world and make movies that change people's lives-which maybe sounds far-fetched and ambitious, but that's my goal (Also, getting a boyfriend would be pretty cool too. Just saying.)
I don't really know what I want to do after that; I'm trying this thing where instead of living in the made up world in my head, I try to live in the present and let the future worry about the future.. I'll tell you how it goes.
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